Saturday, November 8, 2008

TIme of my life

THere u go folks. I'm finally liberated from my awful/terrible work as digi's sales consultant. And there goes my 800 commissions.Just like that. Wasted. OK i'm not gona cry over spilled milk. Time 2 move on.

I'v learnt quite alot from this job. I've left quite a nasty impression for my boss. I  always love to correct people's misconceptions be it my boss's or any of my superior's. And that led to me realising that i'm actually fearless. Fearless of hurting anyone fearless of speaking out my mind. I'm seriously gonna intellectually manoeuvre my dutch bravery. KNowin ppl having some misconceptions and not correcting them is painful to me somehow. BUT...Sometimes explaning is just futile. I often find mysef foolish sometimes trying my best explaining to some people who just dont get it. Later I realised that although I've tried my best in treating everyone equally by not stereotyping them, I would have done it better by stereotyping everyone and treat them differently according to my view. Is treating everyone equally means treating myself unfairly??
sigh..I understand that living in a society full of stereotypes, prejudices and stigmas one should abide by the rules of the society in order to be accepted. And for that very lame reason i'm struggling to fit into this 'colorful' society. 




I'm finally stepping into the transition phase again. Enjoying peace of mind everyday... Priceless. To be able to feel my food like never before, sleep like never before, think like never before, spend(ing less) like never before, and of coz smile and deal with things like never before. Oh yes, to be able to slow down the pace of my life is just awesome. THis reminds me of a talk I happened to attend last week.(I was there just to look around). THere's this natively famous NTV7 speaker hosting about how to live life meaningfully after knowing urself have cancer. I always hear ppl saying live life to the fullest, or live life as if today is the end of the world, but how exactly we should live our life?? fullest?eat full full drink full full or play full full?? so we shall have no regrets??spend most of our money so if tomoronevercomes we'l go happily?? How naive I once was. oR there r still people out there still thinking the same way?? YOu ARe Naive people!!
sorry yes offense. 


Live life at its moment. This is deeper than i thought. Lazy 2 explain. Go figure it out yourself. People telling u the facts and you urself go figure it out have two totally different outcome of impacts on ur perspective of life.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

活在當下!
Prepare tomorrow, TODAY!!

Anonymous said...

wow. u seem to have been thinkin alot while being bored at home.
good. carry on =)

Ivan Teng said...

To anonymous,
HI and the mandarin words there is true. Can write an essay bout the meaning though.

BUt your latter one is somehow..urm.. prepare tomoro, today..? Isnt that in english context call planning?? lolz..

Ivan Teng said...

To atria.

I dun think alot. THese things happened to hit me at times. I'l go haywire tryin to think about them.

Thanks for commenting! Ur comments are much appreciated!!

Anonymous said...

no no.....i wrote something wrong d...den can't change...so it's and example of telling you living your life today to the fullest is the best preparation for tomorrow's life....
People always regret what they have not done in the past and hope for tomorrow, but they always forget that there is a NOW for them to forge on with their new determination and belief. People just love to wait for tomorrow to come. Then, regret when the "NOW" has become a "PAST"
so my correction is, it should be
"LIVE tomorrow, TODAY!"

have a nice day @^^@

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Anonymous said...

Sometimes it's easy to explain everything. U can write a lot of stuffs and explain everything nicely in an essay, but it's so much harder to do it practically in our daily lives. I have been that kind for so many years already... Time to change. =)