Back in action

First of all, to all my blog readers,
My deepest apologies. for not updating my blog for such a long time.(I feel dat i owe u guys one)
Dun worry the owner still havent lost his will and spirit in blogging. XD
Just that there were some obstacles which prevented me from doin so in the past few weeks. My old pc suddenly decided to rest in peace and my laptop's in process of rebirth which just came back few days ago. SO i'm doing some redemption now accompany by my voice reverberating across my room. LOl. dont worry its not sound pollution. Trust me. Its NOT.



Singing mayday's song just simply turned my mood around.
I'm loving mayday's songs more than any other songs. I'm surprised dat those songs which i percieved as not-so nice in the beginning turned out to be quite-nice after some replays.
Oh and even if I love mayday's songs so much, they'r not my idol. Call me old fashioned. But i dont have any idol since I was still singing twinkle2 lil star. Idolization just isnt my kind. Or should i say i just duno waddahell is idolisation. The reason behind this, I always think they'r as much flesh and blood as us. Their singers. That's wad they do best. And how about their voices and their appealing outlooks??DOesnt any of those make u a fan? Oh about that. hmm. still NO. I'm a fan to their good songs. not them.
All in all its just the way of my thinking. The rainbow is nothing but the reflection/magic of light. I dont worship how gorgeous or how incredible rainbow is/can be. I only genuinely enjoys the sight of the rainbow.




I'm getting some sort of apprehension lately. The uncertainty of my future which sends shivers down my spine. Am i seriously gonna end up in wisconsin. Hmm.. mayb its not a bad idea but as that was my backup plan and new york seem so far away from me now.. and wisconsin just offered my scholarships yest which makes things a lil bit clearer now. Aus univs, if only they will offer me letters asap.. sigh




And can somebody pls turn off the tap in my nose?? there's some serious waterfall going on in my nose!!! And this waterfall is bringing down my tears involuntEarily. Lol. the thoughts of it makes me laugh no matter when i think about it. -((I cried when my mucus/snot flows down touching my lips. Dat's an awful scene i know. ))- censored.

TIme of my life

THere u go folks. I'm finally liberated from my awful/terrible work as digi's sales consultant. And there goes my 800 commissions.Just like that. Wasted. OK i'm not gona cry over spilled milk. Time 2 move on.

I'v learnt quite alot from this job. I've left quite a nasty impression for my boss. I  always love to correct people's misconceptions be it my boss's or any of my superior's. And that led to me realising that i'm actually fearless. Fearless of hurting anyone fearless of speaking out my mind. I'm seriously gonna intellectually manoeuvre my dutch bravery. KNowin ppl having some misconceptions and not correcting them is painful to me somehow. BUT...Sometimes explaning is just futile. I often find mysef foolish sometimes trying my best explaining to some people who just dont get it. Later I realised that although I've tried my best in treating everyone equally by not stereotyping them, I would have done it better by stereotyping everyone and treat them differently according to my view. Is treating everyone equally means treating myself unfairly??

sigh..I understand that living in a society full of stereotypes, prejudices and stigmas one should abide by the rules of the society in order to be accepted. And for that very lame reason i'm struggling to fit into this 'colorful' society. 

I'm finally stepping into the transition phase again. Enjoying peace of mind everyday... Priceless. To be able to feel my food like never before, sleep like never before, think like never before, spend(ing less) like never before, and of coz smile and deal with things like never before. Oh yes, to be able to slow down the pace of my life is just awesome. THis reminds me of a talk I happened to attend last week.(I was there just to look around). THere's this natively famous NTV7 speaker hosting about how to live life meaningfully after knowing urself have cancer. I always hear ppl saying live life to the fullest, or live life as if today is the end of the world, but how exactly we should live our life?? fullest?eat full full drink full full or play full full?? so we shall have no regrets??spend most of our money so if tomoronevercomes we'l go happily?? How naive I once was. oR there r still people out there still thinking the same way?? YOu ARe Naive people!!

sorry yes offense. 

Live life at its moment. This is deeper than i thought. Lazy 2 explain. Go figure it out yourself. People telling u the facts and you urself go figure it out have two totally different outcome of impacts on ur perspective of life.

The chain of sixes

Hmm..thought that this would be interesting so i'm trying it out now. Hmm..lets call it 

The Chain of Sixes.

1. You link the person(eveline) that tagged you. 2. You post the rules on your blog. 3. You share six non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself. 4. You tag six random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs. 5. Then, you let each random person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.

6 insignificant things which u probably didnt know about me.

1. I'm ONLY afraid of cockroaches.

My weakness. It is super disgusting, freakish and not to mention those which can fly. Its mere appearance can trigger my craziness.

2. I'm a special eater. 

  I'm in a special group of omnivore. I'm half vegan half carnivore. Carnivorous in the sense that meat which i eat are not gross. define gross? as long as i dont see the bones and blood stains then its not. I cant swallow food which i percieved it as gross. I'm still having this thought now. How can u eat frogs?? EWWW!!AND SOME MORE UR TELLING ME ITS TASTY??Miss A**** . btw, my standard of gross- even ba kut teh is gross.

3.  I have this obsession to not get obssessed with anything.

SElf monitoring or introspection. Its easier said than done but i managed to keep my obssesions in balance anyhow. the word balance here means when i found myself obssesed in something, i would try to withdraw myself from getting attached to it.Be it items, food or sometimes, love.

4. I'm a 90.78% racist.

THe only exception. Indians.

5. I have acquired high level of ignorance.

'ignorance is bliss' is always my motto. Ignorance ranging from msging to feelings, even pain.

6. I was once a devoted buddhist. Now still am. but not as devoted as before.

self-explanatory.

Now u know me better??  OK.

I'm not gona tell u if u dont share/tag/do this ur gonna have how many years of bad luck and misfortunes..I never believed in that. Mayb that's the reason i'm still single and poor. I find it stupid. Why share some joyful/meaningful stuffs and at the same time forcing people consent to reposting/forwarding/sending/doing-whtever-required so that they wont be cursed??Such ambivalence totally ruin the fun and the information.So PEOPLE,KINDLY DELETE the cursings at the end of the forward mails whenever u forward it to ur friends.esp me. thnx.

 urm..i'm tagging those who have blogs only(rules num 2)

Ian Ch'ng, Koh Ian, Esther, Jen, Deon, Kheng Loong.cecilia?(rules din say that i cant tag a person who hav been tagged)

PS: for those having finals now wait til exam finish only do-lah ok.